not like bambi

this weekend i saw a movie called crossing

it was so heavy

it's about a north korean guy trying to get medicine for his wife, trying to get to china, while he is on his way his wife dies so his son comes after him.
when the guy arrives in china he ends up being sent to south korea while he just wants to go back with the medicine for his wife (he doesn't know she already died), people think he jsut wants to escape to south korea but he doesn't,he just wants to go back to his wife and son... such a sad movie. the ending was especially rough. i thought maybe there would be a positive spark at the very end but it was just another smack in the face. makes you realise how harsh reality is, movies that don't try to be all pretty but a portrait of reality.
reality in north korea is just fucked.. people get treated worse than animals, nobody cares.

made me realise how lucky people living in 'free' countries are, we pretty much have everything we need but still get depressed... so selfish.

love black cats

saw this one in front of a house somewhere, it was posing



this is kuno, she's gotten fat ! i call her kuno as in kuro(i) = black neko = cat and it's also the familyname of a character in a movie, she plays piano.

cffzefz

you know when bands get to go into some exotic studio somewhere and they're in there acting like complete dicks because of it ? lol yeah that


lately when a someone i know's band is playing somewhere i tend not to go, gigs in general scare me off lately, unless it's a band i've known and loved for some time and really respect. but sometimes i think it's the wrong bands and wrong people getting the too much tools to record and tour.. i'd like to see some uncool bands get more help instead of the ones whose dads or brothers etc own recordlabels or studios.

i want to make a new podcast..but my taste in music is so scattered all over the place and i don't want it to be a mishmash so i need to settle on some kind of thing that binds the bands i pick..but there isn't ! i'm just too stupid to find =/

corn soup

i made corn soup this morning, i used to order it all the time at chinese restaurants, this one restaurant the soup was to die for but they closed down a year ago..so sad.

it's a bunch of goo on your spoon :D

fuck myspace

myspace won't let you delete your account it wants to keep spamming you with idiot friend requests and other opportunist fucks no way escaping it..oh well... i tried, thanks alot myspacefucks, you'll get what you deserve

down

haven't played guitar in over a month i think, all this crap i have go through to be turned down for yet another job just keeps me from doing what i love doing and what i'm really good at (i guess?). makes me feel really down. i get home from some stupid course i have to take with a bunch of retards because i'm unemployed and as soon as i get home i put on some gg allin or dick spikie or whatever and try top forget about all this stupid stuff. retards and immigrants run off with jobs so really..whatever, it's not like i care anymore..which is a bit scary. i' not passionate about anything anymore these days, sometimes i just go to sleep at 9pm because it takes me away, sometimes i go out all night and get wasted and hope to not have to deal with all this crap anymore the next day.


i was told by our em.."bass player" he found a drummer for HVM but those people just don't communicate so whatever, i don't care much anymore, bands stab you in the back at some point anyway, it's been the case with all the bands i've been in so far.
i play drums in an improv thing in antwerp with some pals, that makes me happy and relieves me, i put a mic through a bunch of effects and make random noises, that makes me happy. i have a partner who is the coolest person in the world, that makes me happy. all the other crap sometimes gets the upperhand.